I’m gettin near the end of this whole 60 days and I’m kinda over it. I’m feeling like it’s time to move on.
I’m trying to think about what March and beyond looks like. What the diet is going to be. What my lifestyle is going to look like etc. I’ve pretty much seen what the Keto diet would do. It gave me that rapid boost of weight loss that I had hoped for.
Things have slowed down tho. Today I have a pressing feeling that it’s time to reset and to move on. I don’t see much more benefit in the future of keeping this diet up.
Continued…
Today I ate like someone who had been denied their favorite things for two months. I went nuts. I ate 1 lb of pasta. I ordered and ate two pizzas. And you know what? It wasn’t even that good. I thought I was missing out on all the things I enjoy. But in reality, I didn’t really enjoy them anyway.
I ate so god damn much I actually threw up, on purpose, to make more room in my gut for all the food I had. Who does that? I wish I could say I’ve never done that before but it’s not true. Thankfully it’s not something I feel compelled to do often, but occasionally I’ve done it to correct an eating mistake. And even more rarely, to facilitate my gluttony. It was not a proud moment.
So here we are. With only a few days left to hit 60, I’m gonna stick to it. I’m gonna finish it out. Come March first, I’ll need to make a new plan. But for now, I’m gonna finish what I started. The reward of allowing myself to eat freely turned out to be no reward at all. Hopefully I can recover and hit a good number on day 60.