…but woke the fuck up. I feel like I’ve been going downhill for a really long time. Today I stepped on the scale and proved it. Holy shit. 333 Lbs. I’ve always been a big guy, but this stopped me dead in my tracks. How can this be me?
I’ve been over 200 lbs since I was a sophomore in high school. Being a fat guy is nothing new to me. Over the years, I’ve lifted weights and developed substantial strength. It was a real source of pride. But I think I let the increasing bench press numbers overshadow what I’ve really been doing to my body. Now, after many years away from the gym, my strength has faded away too. I’m left in a shell that is neither attractive nor strong. Years ago, at least I had something to be proud of even if I was still fat. I’ve ballooned to over 275 lbs a few times in my life; never dropping below 220 as an adult. But here I am, more than 50 lbs above what I previously considered to be my absolute worst. The old body I used to despise at 275 is now the ‘after’ body I aspire to. This has gotten… Out. Of. Control.
There are strange side effects of getting bigger. They start to creep up on you and you don’t even notice. It’s starting to get more difficult to reach across my body to undo the seat belt. My Landcruiser seatbelt isn’t even long enough to fasten at all. When I go to put shoes and socks on in the morning, i struggle to reach my feet. Last time I flew on a plane, I couldn’t put the tray table down because my giant gut was in the way. I can barely even wipe my own ass. I can’t see my own dick anymore.
What the shit have I become? I’m done.
I’ve been intrigued by this Keto Diet and a lot of the info I’m seeing online seems to really make sense to me. I don’t really have a sweet tooth, I don’t drink a lot of soda… unless there’s liquor in it too. I do LOVE rice and pasta. I can eat terrifying quantities of it. I often do. My diet is primarily carbohydrate, I can eat hundreds of grams in a sitting. It’s not a stretch to believe too many carbs may have thrown my body’s chemistry out of whack. I’ll let the science people do the science talking, but it really makes sense to me.
So here we are. I’m going to challenge myself to 60 days on a Ketogenic Diet. I need to do something drastic and immediate to turn this wayward ship around.
Day 1: January 1, 2023
Starting weight: 333 lbs